I can’t pretend

I can’t

Pretend

It doesn’t

Hurt,

Even though

It’s not supposed to,

And I’m not

Even allowed to hurt,

Because it’s not

My right to

Own the hurt

To begin with.

I get it.

I understand.

But I still

Hurt,

And I still

Ache

For everything

We didn’t have-

It’s still mine,

In my dreams,

And I’m keeping it all,

Along with the memories.

There’s only so much

I can

Let go of,

Publicly

Or privately,

So the rest

Remains

All mine,

No matter what.

 

Timothy Vance Jackson

November 20, 2014